Private Thoughts

Private Thoughts

Walking in the woods is a treasure hunt and private thoughts are the treasure. They are nothing like the manic cacophony produced from multitasking nor the annoying hectoring of the inner critic nor the unconscious pop culture regurgitation that feeds monkey mind. They don’t happen until the entire mental frequency calms down into soft rolling waves of just being. The best way I know to get to this mental landscape is to go on a hike with the dogs.

Private thoughts are conversations with yourself. They are full of secrets and the wonderful thing is that they stay that way. Something all your own, only for you. It’s lovely to be seen and recognized in this world, but don’t skimp on being the first audience for this recognition. See yourself. Be your own best friend. Be your most trusted ally. It’s a great deal because you will be together all the way, the only one who for sure will be with you in the end.

I find that my private thoughts generally run in several wide terrains: gratitude towards the people in my life, new creative ideas and pleasure in observation.

How wonderful it is to have all the senses operating. I can smell and see and feel and hear the wind. My feet work. I can climb. I can see my beautiful dogs scampering ahead, no longer held back from their desires and curiosities by a leash, they can do as they please. So much pleasure for me in giving pleasure to them.

That brings me to gratitude. I am so grateful to all the people who love me and support me. I have time to think of them, to appreciate them, to miss them. Holding them and honoring them in my private thoughts brings us closer. I have time to feel their distinction and value. I want to be a better person for them. My thoughts of love repair the damage of the past week. Negativity seems stupid. Such a relief to unburden myself from my petty ruminations.

Slowly observation and gratitude give way to new ideas. I think about what I am working on and working towards. In this relaxed state I don’t feel overwhelmed, I feel excited. I don’t feel like I am creating tasks, I feel like I am creating fun.

It may not stay this way when I get back home. I know from experience it will not. These private thoughts are like watching a hummingbird drink nectar from a flower only inches way. It’s so beautiful I hold my breath and then, off it flies, out of sight. But at least the sense memory is there. I didn’t imagine it.

Olá Brasil! Obrigado pela sua visita. Como você chegou aqui?*

If you have a blog on wordpress, a fun way to waste time is to look at the statistics of who is viewing your pages.  I noticed that 18% of my views are coming from Brazil, the second ranking country after America at  53%.  I love that I have visitors from all over the globe and especially Brazil because I traveled there and it is a super cool country.

I visited Salvador Bahia which is in the northern part of the country on the coast.  What I remember the most are the beautiful beaches. Below is an image from Morro de Sao Paulo, an island with no cars.  Pedestrian heaven on earth.

Morro_de_Sao_Paulo_89Brazil has a very advanced beach culture. You can roll up to a city beach with nothing but your bathing suit and rent or purchase any desired item: chair, umbrella, floating noodle, hacky sack, volleyball, beer, peanuts, ice-cream, fruit and water. All these amenities are easy to access, they aren’t in some ugly prefab building 3 footballs fields away.  Vendors are constantly walking around with yummy treats.  My impression is that people really like hanging out at the beach together and through committed trail and error they have perfected the process.

I love going to the ocean and am super lucky to live near it.  I don’t begrudge the need to bring everything with me, it beats not being there, but I wish I could grab a few Bolinhos de peixe at a grass hut before I go home.

*Hello Brazil! Thank you for visiting. How did you get here?